Aloft, like a royal czar and king, the sun seemed giving this gentle air to this bold and rolling sea; even as bride to groom. And at the girdling line of the horizon, a soft and tremulous motion – most seen here at the equator – denoted the fond, throbbing trust, the loving alarms, with which the poor bride gave her bosom away.
Chapter 132, The Symphony
Last week I fell in love.
in love. . .
with my husband of fifteen years.
It happens sometimes.
Without a birth, or a death,
Without the jarring realignment of a move from one home to the next,
Without any transition at all.
It can come without a long separation,
Without an absence depriving me for nights on end
of his presence pressing warm against my spine,
his arm anchored around my ribs,
to pull me in to him.
It happens sometimes for no reason at all except
That he is
And that I have slipped just far enough away to see myself whole
Outside of him.
And I suddenly long
For the harbor
of his intimate knowledge of me.
He has studied me
and learned me over the course
of two decades.
And the knowledge has not left him
the knowledge is its own pleasure.
The depth of the knowledge
Carves a secret, private world where the two of us
And there is too,
the capacity he displays in his
determination to view the fact
forgot the change the oil in the van
for three years
and now the engine is shot. . .
as a sort of adventure.
We will help each other remember
to pour a quart of oil in
Oh, yes, it is burning oil badly now,
a puff of blue smoke at ignition
clouds over the bumper sticker which reads, ironically:
IS a Family Value”
And we cringe, at our lack of funds
To maintain our ethics.
But he speaks no blame.
In the midst of this
it is not often noted that just as often
as things fall apart,
they come together
and after fifteen years
he can insist
he wants me,
as he presses a mug of coffee into my hands
leads me outside
to point out the dew
which morning has left on the vines.
“It took me by surprise when you told me I’ve been sleeping, with my eyes open wide.”
Colin Devlin, The Heart Won’t be Denied.
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